“If I Knew then”

Of the 13 beings who passed away within a
17 month spec of time; My Momma was the 1st to pass on, December 23 2003, and the end of myself as I knew me.

You’ve heard the term,
“If I knew then, what I know now”

If I Knew Then,

This was written in 2003, 12 days in of  what would become the year of my personal “DEATH”.

Of the 13 beings who passed away within a 17 month spec of time; My Momma was the 1st to pass on, December 23 2003, and the end of myself as I knew me.

By February 7th, now 2004; I had 111%

alone, taken on all planning + expenses + announcements + celebration of life events (widely known as funerals) + chose caskets + gathered all preparations + burial clothing + I personally, dressed, styled hair, applied makeup, painted toes & nails, and wrote personalized poems for 3 beings in my family.

In Less Than 2 months;

My Momma, My Step Dad, & My Niece who would have been 2 months old the day she was buried, had expired. Expired! I heard someone refer to passing as, Expired.

I recall the reality of that moment being what mused the following, ⬇️

If I Knew Then

If I knew it would be the last Time that I see you fall asleep, I would tuck you in more Tightly and pray the Lord Your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last Time, I would see you walk out The door, I would give you a Hug and kiss and call you Back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last Time I’d hear your voice lifted Up in praise, I would video Each action and word

So I can play them back day After day.

If I knew it would be the last Time I could spare an extra moment, to stop; and say

I love you;

Instead of assuming you would know I do.

If I knew it would be the last Time I would be there to share Your day well;

I’m sure you’ll have so many More so I can let just this one Slip away.

For surely there’s always Tomorrow, to make up for an Oversight;

And we always get a second Chance to make everything Just right.

There will always be another Day to say, I love you, and Certainly there’s another Chance to say our,

Anything I can do.

But just in case I might be Wrong and today is all I get

I’d like to say how much I love You and hope we never forget

Tomorrow is not promised to Anyone young or old alike

And today may be the last Chance you get to hold your Loved one’s tight.

So if you’re waiting for Tomorrow, why not do it today For if tomorrow never comes You’ll surely regret the day, That you didn’t take the extra Time for a smile, a hug,

Or a kiss, and you were too Busy to grant someone what Turned out to be there one last Wish.

So hold your loved ones close Today and whisper in her ear, Tell them how much you love Them and that you’ll always Hold them dear.

Take time to say I’m sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, Or Its Okay

And if tomorrow never comes You’ll have no regrets about Today.

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* Joyful Day No Doubt *

You’ve heard the term,

“If I knew then, what I know now”

I’ve changed it a bit.

“If I Understood then, What I Understand Now”

Author: Bella Uni’Verse

I believe in forever. I believe that the spirit is the love heart. I believe that the spirit is the “souls” (source) heartbeat. I believe in high-spirited humans. I believe in the truth of meeting your souls counterpart in a whirlwind of spiritual dance. I believe life unfolds us in a perfectly charted Uni’Verse’All choreography. I believe in Uni’Verse’All Human Beings. A race where we all finish together, there is no first, and there is certainly, no last; there is only Being Human. I believe that a huge majority misses (longing for what is forgotten) the colors of the rainbow, when in reality; It’s always there even if you can’t see it. I believe we all paint our own picture every day. What it looks like is up to us. I believe that we are all within one system, one spirit, one song, one dance, one breath. ONE 1! I believe we are all one; At least we should be. I believe the day drips with dreams and divinity. I recognize that the sky is not the limit. But what I wonder..... Why is it that we only love to the moon and back? When we can love to the furthest reaches of all galaxies and never return. I Believe ©️2018, 2020 Bella Uni’Verse Authentic Reality, Poet With Verve Publications

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