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“When Life Comes From Death and The Loss of Life Teaches us How to Care Enough to Understand how to Love.”

This is the will and Strength of God

When a nightmare teaches us how to LOVE 💗

May I share with you a little something I’ve learned, not by choice but instead by force?

14 years ago I would begin burying my entire family, and in 1 year my family as I knew it was gone.
Since then, up until very recently, every aspect of life had been more tragic and transformational than anything I could have thought possible.

The truth in acknowledging that I have come through these 14 years of challenge a whole Being , mentally, psychologically, spiritually, and even more rewarding is that I am physically still alive is nothing but miraculous.

The details that are ingredients for the recipe of not just our personal lives, but sharing a bond with others, be it friendships, business and most importantly, an intimate bonds, is far more vast than our general thoughts and beliefs comprehend.

I have only been gifted the understanding of these beautiful details because I was a martyr the first half of my life.
{literally and truthfully}

13 people passed in one year and I was the one found bodies, was at the incident, who prepared bodies in caskets, dressing, hair, nails, makeup etc. cremations,
preparing + paying for all life celebration gatherings, obituaries, everything.
To then, at the end of it all realize;
I am the only living adult left,
no one to assist me, to be an elder, just me.

The reality showed me things that only having been forced to see,
is it possible for one to see.
Taking those we care for, for granted is a main course of reality.
This is something after my loss
that since, I NEVER DO and have the gratitude to show others how to also learn how to remember, to the not acknowledge, again not remember, again forget to remember and forget to make this a priority.
On & on Over & over.

Few people understand Love, and I was once one of us who was lost in love.

“I CARE ENOUGH TO UNDERSTAND HOW TO LOVE YOU.”

Through the Looking Glass

Fight The Good Fight

Look • View • See

7 years ago I posted the below photo.

Goodness this is something to think about.
Rings right.
& Righteousness Really Rings true.

I have been, had been trying
for so long to get right,
“Get IT right.”
“IT” Being “Me,”
Life, and the whole of everything that was all wrong and F’d up.
Every time I would fall, fail,
and I mean miserably.
Believe me when I tell you I tried,
I really did try.

When everyone only saw me fail in every way that a Being could fail,
what they didn’t know is how much there was I needed to let go of.

Today I am FREE.
Today I stand in the pretty light
of life.
“The above statement says it all.”

My faith has always been my stronghold.
At the end there in my struggles,
many people thought I was truly and absolutely crazy, a lost cause.
I however knew I could do it,
so, I would keep trying.
I knew one thing for sure, and that was, I WAS NEVER GOING TO GIVE UP,
On Life or On Myself.

I had so much and so many people
I love that made my fight through
the darkness a driving force,
that I’m sure looked crazy from
looking in. And, that is ok.

I’ve learned that no matter the opinion others put out, opinions
are never fully correct and quite often made out of others unsettled unhappiness.
My advice is, go ahead and Toss out the attachments to what others think. Even when we fail, and fall, what matters is, that we get back up and try again like a crazy person wanting to be free !

What I know for sure;
FAITH AND PERSEVERANCE IS THE KEY
🔑!

I believed in myself,
even when I was my worst.
Especially when I was at my worst.

Today; I am layers of beauty and just a heck of a good time. Now learning how wonderful it is to be a best friend and have best friends.
Live a humble and beautiful life
from the lessons of humility.

Seeking the Truth.
Speaking the Truth.
Living my Truth.
Being my VERY BEST SELF.
Today, I am love
💕

Thank you for those of you who
are those of you!

𝓥.

Reflecting

Self Care
Reflection is not something I seek 
to understand within her full measurements.

“Image is a universal description
of personal depiction.”

Dictatorship with intent to speak to one “Self.”
For instance, Looking at Self in
the mirror greeting Self with kind recognition.

We could, choose to do this…
We could even choose to speak out
loud to ourselves, as we look into the mirror.
Checking in with Self.
Eye to eye asking,
Self;
“How are you Being Today?”

Or more often than not, do we instead, choose to check our appearance?
Which then has lead us to self discrimination with a quick belittling insult claiming,
Ugh, “Having a bad hair day!”
something we're all guilty of.

Disconnected and unaware of most of our personal insults, even as silly as a bad hair day claim may seem, this is personally damaging and Self abuse.

Reflection comes from the deepest depths within us, deeper than the flesh. Reaching down into the roots of all energetic pathways.
“From the Crown, all the way down through the SOULS OF OUR FEET.”

Reflection comes from the cavities
of our past.
The {History}
Our own personal “Hi’Story” 🙋🏽‍♀️
Our lives unearthed, revealed, released, uncaptured, set free.

The image is not always reflection.
And reflection is almost never an Image.
In order to find reflection,
we have to begin with, finding
time, taking notice of our
beautiful details,
and basking in the fountain of our beautiful existence.

Proudly embracing our perfect imperfections. {Something we refer to as flaws}
Consciously investing attention into the privilege of having the ability to, visually capture an in-depth look.
To see.
To view admirably, the many layers
of beauty in the mirror, reflecting.

Greeting ourselves when we wake in the morning. Then again before sleeping each night, allowing Self, time to meet reflection in the mirror, saying Self;
“I care for you enough to understand how to love you.”

Self,
I'm proud of you.
You are brave.
Hugging ourselves with pleasure and gratitude to be able.
Smiling upon ourselves, granting ourselves a restful nights sleep.

All of these beautiful elements
grant us a reflection, we are
allowed to meet again, over and
over everyday.

Never would we schedule a meeting with any other Being, before we have met with, and greeted ourselves FIRST !

-
I was sitting in my hotel room,
thinking about “Being.”
Being Human, and what that means;
To Be Human?
Then I thought, I can’t just,
“Be Human.”
Grow to harness authentic reflection {in the mirror}
Seeing Self.
Asking; “How Am I Being?”
Seeking “TRUTH”,
Mantras Every morning at 6am.
Again in the afternoon 1:11pm.
Upon the closing of the day, into the sleepiness of night,
“I” will check in with “Myself”
by out loud asking;
𝒱𝒶𝓃𝒾𝓈𝒽𝒶, How are you Being?

“UnI has nothing to do with me and you, but everything to do with Us”

Are you living a Lumped Life !?

No Lump Zone ! 🚫

2021 is a number not a year.

Wishing for you to find the authenticity and reality you seek for 2021. 

2020 is a number that bleeds into 2121. Another number.

My wish for you is to find life bleeding into your veins.
Life blissful.

Every BS HAPPY NEW YEAR;
For you becomes many happy years.

We are beautifully designed, with a glorious name.
"Lyrics in a song, written specifically for each one of us"

We sing our praises.
Giving us the grateful privilege;
To sing the praises for the Beings who also sing ours in return.

If you ever receive wisdom from another, I invite these words to be amongst them.
When you are in the privilege of a company that inspires in you what others may not;
Remember that within you is a hidden treasure with the desire to be be the honorable choice.
First being our own personal choice.
Leading to Being the choice, chosen by others by the beauty from within Being, someone others want, not need.

2020-2021 is a number. Not a year.
Live every day until your number is called to exit this life with joy, gratitude, peace, hard work, care leading to love.
Through this, you will live an authentic life.

Bella Uni’Verse - 45 years in 2021

Heavy Heart

This Is My Moment – This is Our Moment

Today my heart is heavy.

My spirit is ......
Continue reading “Heavy Heart”

The Power INVESTED in me

– Rooted from the souls {not soles} of my feet, into the Uni, gifted to be a conduit receiving the Verse.

Uni :We have put up the capital .INVESTED the PRINCIPLE.Imagine LIVNG off of the fruits of INTEREST, to experience enlightenment.The REPAID increase of interest from the,BOLD investment of ATTENTION “PAID” {not payed}Gifted – Rooted from the souls {not soles} of my feet, into the Uni, gifted to be a conduit receiving the Verse.

Go deep and Rise above

Rise above the deep. Those of us buried. Reaching upward for a hand. When the risen attempt to take that hand, to pull us up, don’t be afraid to take it.

AR

AUTHENTIC REALITY is not just a Logo, a Brand. Authentic Reality is Attention to everything.

Authentic is HONESTY and the Bravery to tell the truth in every aspect of life. Self truth, hurtful truth, without the reservations that evoke the classic “I didn’t want to hurt their feelings” “what if they get mad at me”?

Truth is; That. That, is just the way it is!

Authentic Reality is freedom that allows us to sit comfortably with ourselves;
No matter what the out come, it will be the truth.

Authentic Reality is spending time with
ourselves, especially on the best of day’s, in the best of time. This will ensure during the times of challenge & personal struggle, we are secure. Able to come to
an UNDERSTANDING for & of ourselves.

We must go deep personally, dig deep, an unearthing must take place for any type of Authentic Discovery!

Deep ~ Go Deep
That is not the same as being deep or feeling deep.
Generally deep feelers,
Care and Love intensely, & much more for the one they love than they ever have for themselves.

Rise above the deep. Those of us buried. Reaching upward for a hand. When the risen attempt to take that hand, to pull us up, don’t be afraid to take it.